Well, I did work out yesterday...not today, but the day ain't over yet.
I am trying to figure out if I am going to be the funny, fat friend forever or if I really have the schmootz in me to be healthy. I don't want to be skinny. I just want to be healthy.
My goal for this week was just to exercise and considering it's 8:20, maybe I should light a fire under my bum. I am so conflicted about everything. Thin and healthy or fat and satisfied...ain't that a quandry?
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Monday, April 5, 2010
I'm Baaaaaaaaaaack
Depressed, but back. (sigh)
I can't do hcg right now. I just can't. I don't know how other people feel about it and deal with it, but I have to have a certain amount of calm in my life in order to focus so hard on food and choices. Yeah, I'm a food loser. I know that.
I have decided that my main focus right now is getting active again. I'm going to start exercising. EVERY DAY...except Sunday. That's my day off.
And I was incredibly inspired by Jennifer Hudson and I am going to try and break the co-dependent cycle I have with food. I have to change my mind-set from "live to eat" to "eat to live". I have to. I'm killing myself. I can tell that my yo-yoing is doing damage. And whether or not it is doing damage physically...it is doing damage psychologically.
And While the scale is the ultimate judge, jury and executioner...I'm am changing my tactics a little bit.
Goal #1: Going down a level on Wii fit. And with any luck, that means that the Board won't sound like it's going to die every single time I stand on it. I think that is a good goal.
I'm taking baby steps. I'm going to teach myself that I don't have to reward myself with food NOR do I have to take out my stress, anger or whatever else on myself with food either. Food is fuel...I'm not a squirrel and I don't have to store up for the winter.
Okay Monday, I'm winning today...sorry about yer bad luck.
I can't do hcg right now. I just can't. I don't know how other people feel about it and deal with it, but I have to have a certain amount of calm in my life in order to focus so hard on food and choices. Yeah, I'm a food loser. I know that.
I have decided that my main focus right now is getting active again. I'm going to start exercising. EVERY DAY...except Sunday. That's my day off.
And I was incredibly inspired by Jennifer Hudson and I am going to try and break the co-dependent cycle I have with food. I have to change my mind-set from "live to eat" to "eat to live". I have to. I'm killing myself. I can tell that my yo-yoing is doing damage. And whether or not it is doing damage physically...it is doing damage psychologically.
And While the scale is the ultimate judge, jury and executioner...I'm am changing my tactics a little bit.
Goal #1: Going down a level on Wii fit. And with any luck, that means that the Board won't sound like it's going to die every single time I stand on it. I think that is a good goal.
I'm taking baby steps. I'm going to teach myself that I don't have to reward myself with food NOR do I have to take out my stress, anger or whatever else on myself with food either. Food is fuel...I'm not a squirrel and I don't have to store up for the winter.
Okay Monday, I'm winning today...sorry about yer bad luck.
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